Saturday, March 30, 2013

I do not do the good that I want

This week I have constantly been thinking about something Paul said in Romans. "For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing." Romans 7:18b-19. I can't seem to do anything that I know I need to be doing. I want to continue to get healthier, I want to exercise, I want to eat right and yet I keep doing the things I know I should not be doing. What gives? Where has my determination gone? I have been focused on other things and am not taking the time for my health. I am very excited about this new job and it has kind of consumed me. It's a big change and it's coming. It is going to happen.

So... I sat down today and made a plan for the week. Let me say that I have done this many times before and I have NEVER stuck with it. This time will be different. I looked up some clean eating recipes for the week and have my exercising scheduled. I'm thinking the job change is a good time to implement other changes as well. It's a fresh start. This isn't to say that we will always eat 100% "clean," but I am hoping that it will be the majority of the time. I've read more and more about the health benefits of eating clean and I know it will be worth it.

This coming week is my last at my employer of 5 1/2 years. It's a bittersweet time. I love the majority of people there and it will be sad not seeing them again. I know this week of good-byes is going to be hard, but I will not let my emotions distract me from the plan. This is a challenge to myself to stick with it no matter what else may be going on around me.

I'm looking forward to the rest of the weekend. Tonight we're going to some friends' for game night and tomorrow is Easter which means time with the families.

Happy Easter! I leave you with 2 Easter videos.

I used to listen to this song with my Dad in the car:

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Exciting News

There are a couple of things I am excited to mention this week. I know I haven't been posting as much, but I have not had a whole lot to write about. I will try to update more often though.

It is weigh-in day. I am down 1.6 pounds this week! Again I was surprised. I haven't been exercising or any of the things I am supposed to be doing. I have been really stressed lately and haven't done much of anything. Except this...

Or at least trying to sleep. Stress causes sleepless nights and I crashed when I got home yesterday. Thankfully, that should all be over now.

Here comes the exciting news...I found a new job! I am beyond thrilled. I have been looking for awhile and this has just worked out perfectly. I can't wait to start on this new adventure. I have always been kind of afraid of change and afraid of failing, but for some reason I'm not worried about this. God has worked it out and for that I am thankful.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Weigh In

I was very surprised when I stepped on the scale today: 187.0. I am back down to 30 pounds gone! Woop woop! It's very exciting and unexpected because I have not been eating well at all and I have not been exercising.

Today was a really bad day. I kind of asked for it in a way. I prayed for clarity on a certain situation this morning and I believe I received it. I know what I need to do, I just have to do it. What better way to relieve stress than to run? I went to the park and ran 3.1 in 36:52. It definitely did the trick of relieving my stress. It was actually a pretty nice day for a run. Partly cloudy, in the 40's. The only bad part was the wind. Running into it is not too much fun. I tried to push myself and run the hills today. Usually I only run them once and then run the track another way to avoid it. I ran it all three times. (It is a mile track.) My goal was to try to run under a 12 minute pace.

Success! Here are the splits:

I need to work on my pacing, but for now it just felt great to finish. Especially since I have been pretty lazy lately.

I went to a book club tonight. I really enjoyed it. Reading is something that I love to do and to get to talk to others about it was great. I am shy and quiet when I meet new people, but I still had fun. We read The Long Walk. It was really good. 

Well, I better get some sleep. I have to go to a health care reform seminar in the morning. How exciting! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sunday, March 17, 2013


It has been a busy week. Wednesday night we had church, Thursday I had an appointment and didn't get home until 7. Saturday morning we went to the funeral home, I had to go get my niece's birthday cake and then finish up our taxes. Today after church we went to my parents' for my niece's birthday and to give the kids their Easter presents. Tonight we had our first VBS meeting after church. Now, it's Sunday night and I have to get up and go to work in the morning.

I am sad to say that I have not been exercising. I have had kind of a down week. I have lots of excuses but honestly, I just haven't felt like it. I was in a funk. Hopefully the scale will not reflect my laziness, but I am sure that it will. I have been doing a lot of reading. I read Silver Linings Playbook. For once, I actually think the movie was better. I don't know if it's because I saw it before I read it or what. They were both good I just liked the story in the movie better. There were quite a few differences.

I'm thinking that this week should be calmer and I am going to get back on track. I've made a lot of progress and I don't want to stop where I am. I have a long way to go and I am determined to get there.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

A Small Gain

Well, my birthday celebrations got to me. I am up .6 this week. It could have been a lot worse, but it is still a little disappointing. I slacked off and I knew I shouldn't have. It's a new week and I will do better.

Our church's quarterly ladies' night out was tonight. It's always an enjoyable time. I don't get to talk to them as much since I started teaching the teenagers on Wednesday nights. I picked a friend up and we were talking about eating healthy. I told her I looked into eating clean and said that it seems like so much work and you have to put so much time into it. She told me that you just have to think about your health and isn't it worth taking the time? (Paraphrasing, I can't remember the exact words.) Regardless, she made an excellent point and I needed to hear it. My health is worth the time and effort into eating better. So many prepackaged foods have stuff in them that is horrible for you. You can't even pronounce the names of most of the ingredients. I am going to do some more looking into what it means to eat cleanly and try to come up with a feasible plan. I'm worth it. I'm not saying it will be easy or something that I am going to just change right away, but I am going to make an effort and try.

If you have any thoughts or resources on clean eating, please let me know.

Monday, March 11, 2013


Today was a very relaxing day. I did get a few things done, but it was nice not to have to work. I started the morning by going over to Trader Joe's. I had read a lot about it on different blogs, but had never gone. It's about a 30 minute drive. Dad and I were going to go golfing today but it rained most of the day so I had time to drive over and see what it's like. I didn't get too much but I had to get some Cookie Butter. That's the one thing that I have seen people talk about the most.

It is delicious. It has 90 calories per tablespoon so I will eat it sparingly, but it is pretty tasty.

I got back on my Power 90 schedule today. I did the sculpting and then I ran a mile on the dreadmill.

I added a new page today. I am creating a list of 28 things I want to do before I turn 28. The list is incomplete. There are only 9 things so far, but it's a start. 

Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes! It's been great!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Birthday Weekend

Saturday was a pretty lazy day. I only walked 3,688 steps. We went to McCallister's for lunch. Then we went to see Oz. I must say I was not a huge fan. It seemed cheesy to me for some reason. Plus someone brought their approximately one and a half year old with them and sat right next to Lucas. She even called him Daddy. She kept throwing her milk and it was pretty distracting. Eventually she did get up and move to the bottom but the little girl cried/jabbered through the whole thing. It wasn't a horrible movie, it's just not what I was expecting in some way.

Last night we saw Little Shop of Horrors. It was fantastic! I have never seen the movie so I didn't know the story and I really enjoyed myself. The Derby Dinner Playhouse always puts on a good show. Most of their tables are for 4 people so we weren't sure who we would be sitting with. Thankfully they were a very nice couple and we had an enjoyable evening. Here is the trailer:

Today we celebrated my birthday with our families. We went to Dad and Mom's after church. Mom made baked spaghetti. Then we went to Red Robin with Lucas' family for supper. I am pretty sure I have gone over my calories for the day. I haven't logged anything yet, but I am kind of afraid of the number. Mom made cupcakes too. They were delicious.

I went for a run when we got home to try to burn some of the extra calories. It felt like my worst run ever. I don't know if it was because it was so windy and I felt like I was running in slow motion or what the problem was. I think part of it was I ran too soon after I ate. I just ran 2 miles today. I didn't think I could make the whole 3.1. I ended up having my fastest pace yet, but I don't think I could have kept it up for another mile.

I do have one confession...I have not done Power 90 for 2 days. Eeek! I thought my run today might make up for it a little bit, but tomorrow I think I will do the sculpting and the cardio.

I hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. I felt very blessed today!

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Friday in Pictures

Friday afternoon was pretty busy. I did the Power 90 sculpting then decided to run a mile on the treadmill. I pushed really hard this time. I cut 21 seconds off of my last time.

The after picture.

When Lucas got home we went to eat and to the bookstore. We went to El Nopal. It's one of our favorite places and it is pretty inexpensive. Afterwards we went to the bookstore.

We usually spend a couple of hours when we go. Last night we were only there for about 30 minutes or so. What is wrong with us? I did get a picture of something I have never seen before.

A Lego New Testament?
So this is what I got for my birthday. 5 new books and some bookmarks. Disgrace by J.M. Coetzee, Snow Falling on Cedars by David Guterson, The Way We Came to the End by Joshua Ferris, Wise Men by Stuart Nadler and Silver Linings Playbook by Matthew Quick. (I loved that movie so I figured I would love the book too.

When we got home neither one of us was feeling too well so we didn't stay up too long. I think we went to bed earlier than we have all week, but I am feeling much better this morning. I'm ready for Derby Dinner tonight!

Thursday, March 7, 2013


Not much has happened in the past couple of days. I am still doing Power 90. I am learning the moves better and how to make them more effective. With weights slower is better, I definitely feel it more. I am becoming more familiar with the yoga moves. The toughest part of the cardio is all the jumping exercises. They wear me out.

I forgot that this is Thoughtful Thursday. I will work on it and maybe post it tomorrow. Tomorrow is the beginning of the birthday celebration. I'm not sure what we are doing, but there will be a stop at one of my favorite places in the world...Barnes and Noble. I could spend hours in there. And we are usually there for a couple of hours when we go.

Little Shop of Horrors at Derby Dinner is Saturday night. That will be a lot of fun. We also bought tickets for another concert. Can you go to too many? Mayday at Klipsch. I'm looking forward to it. Music is an amazing thing. I feel the most like me when I am listening to/feeling music. These are the lyrics that have spoken to me the most recently. The whole song is great, but this part I can relate to. You have to overcome your fear. Fear holds you back.

So have you ever been caught in a sea of despair?
And your moment of truth
Is the day that you say "I'm not scared"

More lyrics:

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Woop Woop!

For some reason I have been saying this a lot lately...Woop Woop. And why am I so happy? I lost 2.2 pounds this week! .4 pounds more and I will be back down to 30 pounds lost since this began and I am now only 2.8 pounds away from the lowest I reached last year. Thankfully the old scale was still accurate even though the base broke off of it. When I weighed in on the new scale it was within .2 of the old one.

It's too soon to say if Power 90 has helped, but it definitely hasn't hurt anything. Today's workout was Cardio/Abs again. Those yoga moves are still killer. I am getting a little better at them, but I've still got some work to do. What's so nice about this workout is you do the same thing for 45 days until you start phase 3-4. That means you start out slow and keep improving on the same exercises until you change to the next phase. I don't feel like I am being left behind or anything, I am working at my pace and slowly picking it up.

We tried a new Hungry Girl recipe tonight: Exploding Chicken Taquitos. They were delicious. We will be making them again I am sure. Here's the recipe:

I'm keeping the post short tonight, there isn't too much new going on. I just wanted to share this week's progress. Woop Woop!

Monday, March 4, 2013


We have had a much needed relaxing evening after a stressful day of work. Some days I just don't understand. I'm still trying to figure out where I need to be. Anyway, we went out to our favorite place, came home and did absolutely nothing. I have become addicted to Cheers. It's on Netflix and every episode has been hilarious. Last week was the first time I watched an episode and now I can't stop. We are almost done with the 1st season.

With the Power 90 program you are supposed to rest on either the 6th or 7th day. I decided to rest today since I ran and did the sculpting circuit yesterday. Tomorrow I will be back at it.

My scale literally broke this weekend so I had to purchase a new one. It is supposed to be in tomorrow which is weigh in day. I'm just hoping the scale that broke was accurate and when the new one comes in I don't weigh ten pounds more than the old one said I did. It's a scary feeling. As long as it's close I should be okay.

4 more days until a 3 day weekend!!!

Sunday, March 3, 2013

3.33 on 3/3/13

As I mentioned yesterday, I was itching to run. I decided to go ahead and do it today since I just had the Sculpting circuit. I started the run out with my gloves on because it felt like it was about 35 degrees out. I decided to take them off about halfway through my run so I stuck them in my pockets. I reached in my pocket later and one glove was gone. I circled back to try to find it and in the process my other glove disappeared. I never found either of them. I also forgot to wear my Fitbit, but thankfully you can manually track your workouts on the website so my mileage counted towards my step goal for the day. It seemed like it wasn't going to be a very good run, but I didn't let it bother me I just kept running. And....  

Boom. I set a new distance and average pace record on my Runkeeper account. I was so surprised. I didn't try to keep going a certain pace, I just ran. Once I got to 3.1 I decided to just run around the subdivision the rest of the way instead of walking home like I normally do and made it to 3.33. I had a little motivation while I was running. Someone else was out walking her dogs and on my way back down the hill she said, "Good job. Keep going!" How encouraging was that! It was helpful after running up that big hill. I was worn out when I got back.

After my run I still had to get my Power 90 sculpting in. I am just starting out with 3 pounds weights and will move up to 5 pound weights next. I am enjoying the workout so far. I've stuck with it for 5 days and that's longer than I have with any other exercise DVD I've purchased. Like I've said, it just feels different this time. 

I hope you have had a great weekend! Until tomorrow...

Saturday, March 2, 2013


There's not too much to report today. I did the Cardio/Abs again for Power 90. I felt like I got a good workout when I finished, but I am itching to run. I may run tomorrow since it is just the sculpting session.

I started a new book/journal this week. It is called Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge.

I just read the 1st chapter this week and started working on the journal. Here is a quote from this week's reading: "I know I am not alone in this nagging sense of failing to measure up, a feeling of not being good enough as a woman. Every woman I've ever met feels it - something deeper than just the sense of failing at what she does. An underlying, gut feeling of failing at who she is. I am not enough, and I am too much at the same time. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not kind enough, not gracious enough, not disciplined enough. But too emotional, too needy, too sensitive, too strong, too opinionated, too messy. The result is Shame, the universal companion of women. It haunts us, nipping at our heels, feeding on our deepest fear that we will end up abandoned and alone."

I have always said that my biggest fear is failing. It keeps me from doing new things, from doing things that I want to do, but I don't want to fail. I was so encouraged when I read this part to know that I am not alone in that fear. I think I am going to learn a lot and grow from reading this.

Friday, March 1, 2013

Power 90 Days 2 & 3

Power 90 day 2 was a little tougher than day 1. The cardio was okay, a few parts of it were kind of tough, but I was able to complete it. The yoga moves were killer. The ab workout was the most challenging. You do 100 crunches total. 10 each of 10 different moves. I was definitely feeling it when I got done. Today was toning again. It went smoothly. 3 days down 87 to go.

Today is the first day of my birthmonth. One day a year isn't long enough to celebrate so we celebrate all month. Next weekend we are going to see Little Shop of Horrors at Derby Dinner. I am pretty excited. I've only been there a few other times, but it is always a lot of fun. I'm not sure what else we will be doing but it usually involves a lot of food. Planning ahead will be key. If we do go out I need to pick my meal before and stick with the plan.

I've done well staying in my calorie range this week until tonight. I was even proud today because everyone ordered lunch out and I couldn't accurately figure the calories on anything so I took my own lunch to work. I knew that I should have just cooked something at home tonight and I ordered pizza. Poor decision on my part, but I can't let it be the start of a poor decision streak. No reason to let one bad thing ruin it all. Especially since it is the weekend. Weekends are always harder for me. If I want to see the number on the scale go down and I want to feel better then I need to make great decisions and forget about this one bad decision.

On a more positive note...when I bought my last jeans I decided to go ahead and buy a size 12 for in the future because I finally found a pair of jeans that I really like the way they fit. I didn't try them on until yesterday and I was so shocked to find that they fit! They are just a little tight. I was so happy. I never dreamed they would fit now. It was an awesome surprise!